Nibojener's Blog

I’m a small town white boy just tring to make ends meet ♪

nibojener — Thu, 10 Dec 2009 09:11:51 +0000

Okay, so things have been shit for me lately.. It feels like I lost everything. I messed up and now I’m paying the price I guess. I just don’t think its fair. I was just trying to make things better.. but it came back and bit me in the ass in the end. Before I had everything I wanted. I had people who I cared about and they cared back. But I messed it up so much. Now I’m lucky if I talk to you once every month. And even at that it’s not on the same personal level as before. I drove you away from me. I was too busy worrying about my own issues and complaining to you that I completely forgot about yours. But.. it’s too late now.. it’s all gone. All I want is a second chance.. I would give it all up just to talk with you one more time.. to try and heal our broken relationship. But I guess I had this coming. Everything good has to end at some point or another. But it shouldn’t have to end like this.. on such a bad note.. you were everything to me.. you were the reason I woke up in the morning.. now I don’t bother waking up.. there’s no point anymore.. all I have left is my music. The one thing that keeps me here. I may be dumb.. but I’m not stupid.. I know you want to fix this too.. I know you miss what our friendship used to be.. maybe not as much as I do. But I know you do. All I want is to be able to talk to you for more then five minutes so we can sort this out. But you gave up on me a long time ago. I loved you.. I still do.. but you don’t care. Did you ever care? I’m so unsure of myself right now. I need some peace of mind. You’re the only one who can give me that. But since we don’t talk I guess I’ll just go crazy. I already am going crazy. I think about you all the time. When I close my eyes I see your face. And maybe that sounds creepy but its true. You’re the only one who could convince me everything was going to be okay. You were the only one who could comfort me when things were going bad. You were the only one there for me in my times of need. And now I need you more then ever. When I see you walking down the street or wherever I might see you, my heart stops. I can’t handle this anymore…. just please forgive me..

Nibojener

Macy’s day parade/ looking for a new hope.

nibojener — Tue, 28 Jul 2009 04:32:32 +0000

I’m going to start this post by writing the lyrics to green day’s song “Macy’s day parade” okay.. here goes…:

” Today’s the Macy’s day parade.
the night of the living dead is on its way,
with a credit report for duty call.
its a life time gaurantee,
stuffed in a coffin “10% more free”
Red light special at the mausoleum.

Give me something that i need,
satisfaction gauranteed for you.
whats the consolation prize?
econemoy sized dreams of hope

when i was a kid i thought,
i wanted all the things that i haven’t got
oh, i learned the hardest way
then i realized just what it took,
to tell the difference between thieves and crooks.
when all along it was me and you.

Give me something that i need,
satisfaction gauranteed,
whats the consolation prize?
economy sized dreams of hope.

Whats the consolation prize?
economy sized dreams of hope.
give me something that i need.
satisfaction gaurateed
’cause im thinking ’bout a brand new hope,
the one i never known
and where it goes
and im thinking about the only road
the one i never known

Cause im thinking about a brand new hope
the one i never known,
and know i know
its all that i wanted.”

This song means so much to me because I feel like I have found exactly what I wanted, but its too late. I’ve been in something else too long to turn in that direction. Everythings so fucked up. I’m more confused now then i thought was even possible. I’m sick of the same old shit, but I’m stuck with it. No convienent way out for me. I hate looking at people and they think they have it so hard, when I despratly wish i had it as easy as they do. People take what they have so for granted. But then again. maybe thats what I’m doing. Maybe I’m just another one of those whiney bitches i hate so much. Maybe I’m just a big hypocryt. Probably. I’m sure you’re tired of my whining by now. Guess I’ll leave you alone. Bye

Nibojener

Haircut!:(

nibojener — Thu, 09 Jul 2009 03:00:46 +0000

Today they unthinkable happened. My mom took me to the hair dresser for a trim because my hair was getting just a bit out of control. I like it the way it was (maybe a bit shorter) but my Dad has issues with hair(he gets his god damned hair cut every three weeks). So anyways, I tell the hairdresser lady that i wanted maybe 1 and a half inches off right? Well im fucking bald. god dammit. I don’t feel like me anymore.. if you know what i mean? Its like a part of me is missing. my hair was what made René René. Me not having big hair is like a milkshake not having milk. So thats what i am.. A fucking lactose free milkshake… delicious….. god dammit… anyways… sorry i haven’t been posting anything lately… I just haven’t felt up to the challenge. I’m pretty lazy these days… Holy shit. I use lots of dots… see?…. GAH! haha. whatever though. I think that they are necissary. otherwise you would not be able to sense my displeasure. Hmmmmmm….. So On friday me my sister and my grandpa are driving out to calgary to visit family. I can’t really decide what guitar to bring. I want to bring my acoustic because it doesnt need an amp and its just easier that way. But I want to bring my LP becuase its fucking cool and I hate to say it but i like to show off. My acoustic is pretty cool too tho. It is an “anjo f-50″ Anjo stopped making guitars in like 1980 or something so its at least a 20 year old guitar. My uncle gave it to me becuase it needed alot of work on it and i guess he’s just to damn lazy (im only not lazy when it comes to fixing guitars). But anyways. im sure you really don’t give a shit about my guitar collection. But maybe my next entry will be all about my guitars… hmmm or just instruments in general. I’ll think about it. I really like this song.. it’s called Burnout, its by Green day (like most stuff i listen to. xD) theres one line that makes me sad in it though “my Hair is shagging in my eyes” when i would play it before it was like yeah! but now its like “oh mann… i wish i had my hair back:(” kay but i think im gunna stop typing now. Sorry for wasting your lives!! bye

Nibojener.

My secret love…. and other men I adore.

nibojener — Tue, 16 Jun 2009 01:18:54 +0000

Today, I thought I’d tell you about my one true love. Her.. i mean… his… name is Marshell. Marshell is one hell of a piece of love meat. He pushes my buttons just the right way. Not to hard.. not to soft…. just right in the middle… Another person I adore is Joelle Larsoon. He is sexy…. very sexy… but anyways just thought i would share this with you and leave a comment please!:)

Nibojener

Boring lonely day…

nibojener — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 22:23:41 +0000

Today was a boring lonely day (as the title reads). I thought it would be fun to stay home all day while my friends went to the goldeyes game (which i watched on tv for a while anyways). But instead of enjoying the nice weather with my friends my day (or afternoon i should say (I got up at 2)) consisted of napping eating doritos playing guitar hero and watching pirates of the carribean. In fact. Im still in my pyjama’s (it’s 5:15). I couldn’t sleep last night… (or should i say morning?(i went to bed at 7 after watching all the back to the futures (you know cause i’m cool (not really (at all))))). wow. those brackets got confusing there… did i do it right? oh cool.. I was just on the phone with my mom and she hung up on me… thanks mom… but anyways. yea if i did those bracket things wrong i would love some feedback (I need something to do tonight..) Now that I mention it… I use a lot of brackets don’t I? but anyways… as you can see my life isn’t very exciting today… so yea.. bye!

Nibojener

wtf moment..

nibojener — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 22:11:35 +0000

Yesterday I had a dentist appointment, so i decided to take the bus instead of walking seeing as the appointment was at 4:00. So i get on the bus and who happens to sit on the next seat over? Similala of course! So we start talking about like how dark her eyes were and how that some how made them look huge (like how bigcitysoundgirl looks overly tall even next to some one her own height). When all of a sudden “tootlebuttons” (as Similala would say) asked me “can i borrow your binder?”. There was a few things that didnt make sense with that question.. like.. why would I give her my binder? And the other thing was, didn’t have a binder… But anyways. i said no you cant borrow my binder. Then out of nowhere she smacks Similala in the head! I was like where did that come from? It was really random and uncalled for. So similala asks “What was that for?!”. And she says because you won’t stop talking about twilight! And again there were a few things wrong with that. The first being we weren’t talking about twilight at all (I would never talk about it) and the second being she wasn’t even in our conversation! It was really rude and I think that she sould get a punching bag or something so she can unleash her rage at home and not on others. So yeah. I’m going to start a fundraiser so we can get her this punching bag and no one will have to put up with her random outbursts of violence.

Nibojener

Spiderman or Superman. Who is better?

nibojener — Tue, 09 Jun 2009 00:58:46 +0000

Ever since I heard about this whole blog thing thats been goin on, I’ve been anxious to make an account to determine who the better super hero is. Some would say Superman becuase he is invinsible, but in this case spiderman has Kryptonite so its a fair fight. I personally think that superman would still win even with his invinsibility taken away. BUt spiderman could win… because he is pretty cool….. but you know what? I’m gunna let you decide! thank you dear readers and comment with your vote!

René

A post… all about me! (in background) “yay..”

nibojener — Mon, 08 Jun 2009 22:33:03 +0000

Hello peoples, well I’m pretty sure its only me here… but you know I’ll continue anyways. I am René! I like to do stuff…. what kind of stuff you ask? I enjoy going on MSN, playing guitar and listening to music… What kind of music you ask? I listen to punk rock alternative rock and some 80′s rock, and I hate AC/DC. Today my friend asked me why I hate AC/DC. I said i hated it because all the songs sound a little to much like each other and because all its about is drinking having sex and partying. Although I am a bit fond to one of there songs “Rock n Roll Aint’ noise pollution” but you know, its not my favourite song or anything. So yea. there’s more to me but it just starts getting personal if i go there. So till next time my dear friends!

René